Class

I just finished my first class (strengthen and stretch)! I haven't done that since I was 16. It was excellent! I could finally keep pace with the old ladies!!! I liked it way better than doing a tread mill alone! It felt like a perfect fit! I can't wait to sign up tomorrow for a summer pass!

Day 2

I couldn't make it to the gym this morning, so in it's place I went on a walk. It wasn't long. Maybe a half mile. Once again, I had to compete with the elderly ladies... man they're quick! I tried to keep pace with the one in front of me. Tomorrow I'm going to attend an OA meeting... I've been a couple times before. All I could do was cry. This time, I'm going to approach it differently. I've got a problem and I'm confronting it. I've been dealing with it my entire life with little success (although the successes I've had are worth their own entries). The people at these meetings have had the same problem as me, but many of them have had success. I'm rehearsing walking into the meeting, calming myself, going into with an open mind and heart. Everyone's human. I don't need to crumble and cry as if I'm broken. It's quite the opposite.

Day 1- Jumping right in

In becoming the person I know I am, the first thing I've got to take care of is my weight. I'll weigh myself officially tomorrow, but I'm up to around 285... holly crap. Today I went to the gym. Granted I was in dirty tennis shoes, my painting sweats, and an unmatched t-shirt, but I went. I started the elliptical machine at 9:07 (my father-in-law says it's better on your joints than a treadmill). It was hard. It "paused workout" twice because I was going so slow it thought I was stopping. After 10 minutes I was beat. I decided to walk the track. I set my goal at 5 laps, a half mile. It was all going well until the old lady lapped me... seriously. After eventually finishing my 5 laps, I decided to do some stretches and call it a day. It was 9:27! Ha! I'm not giving up though, I know it'll get easier. I know I'll eventually wear the right thing and be able to give the lady at the desk a knowing wave as I walk by, so for today, I went went the awkwardness.