Pizza anyone

Last night we ordered pizza. At dinner I did great. I only had one slice. I felt great. A couple hours after dinner though I just ent in and ate 2 more slices. Granted I made myself eat some cottage cheese (protein) in between. It's just sooooo much easier to breath when I eat. It makes me relax. It gives me more energy. I've been tired lately. I've been napping all over the place. I think it's because I'm not used to not having the caffein rush in cooperation with a gross amount of carbs. Maybe that's how I'm superwoman. It'll take some time to get over that. Last night I just needed a break. I just needed to relax. It was the only way I knew how. I ignored all thought to look to my higher power. I just had to relax.

On another note, I went to a new aerobics class today (I'm finally getting the hang of cardio light so I thought I'd add a new one). There were 2 other people who were new to the class as well. Both of them had other people in the class introduce themselves after class. No one came up to me. I wonder if it's because I'm fat? Does my being fat make people uncomfortable?

I heard a thing on the radio the other day that was some guy "giving a big FU" to fat people because there are plenty of supplements, gyms.... that we have no excuse for being fat. I want to give a big FU to him. Yes, I'm choosing to be this way. Moron. If other people are thinking like that on at least a subconscious level then I probably do make people uncomfortable because I'm fat. Maybe this is why I so often feel awkward with my peers. I'm great with people who look up to me and such, but when it comes to peers and many friends, I just get stupid. I don't know what to talk about other than myself. it's very strange. Maybe they're feeling awkward, and I'm picking up on that and then feeling awkward too.